Tea break (Translated 小休憩(2026.03.26))

    It was tough.

    Truly tough.

    It was tough, very, very much.

    So, I have done my one-year special practice/training of Buddhism to be a Buddhist monk, and I eventually became one. I mean, technically, I have already been a monk since the end of last year, but that is not the point here. Well, it was quite tough both physically and mentally. What I feel for now is gladness and appreciation. Quite a lot of things had happened. Of cause there must be some misunderstandings and frustration and palpable atmosphere. I can even say that communications, relationships and the existence of people are more annoying and exhausting than actual training. They might be a part of the training, but I know places where we do not have to really care about them, so I do not know. I have no words. I have nothing to say. I feel kinda powerless, but it might be something that I had to overcome… However, I became a teacher (religious teacher like monks and priests), and my sect of Buddhism emphasizes ideas that goodness for other people and good acts for others, so I would have to rather be positive to have connections with people. The more I study, the more I get interested and the more parts that I can agree with, so for now I like these Buddhist ideas, yet for me, who do not understand what human beings are, it seems that the situations that I would think or feel are hard to deal with would increase later in my life. It is hard.

    I have learned a lot. quite a lot. And I found it very interesting. I wrote some in my summer break (it is not actually a break, but it is a self improvement period to go back to each own temple to study and practice), although that was far from enough, and I have learned quite a lot more. Lots of things that appeared are becoming visible with studying. Well, or else I selfishly see them regardless of their actual existence. Or they might get their existance when they are cognized. Not sure, but anyhow, I learned a lot of interesting ideas and acceptable ideas very much. not yet able to write them in detail, but I would love to talk or write about them sometime.

    Well, this page, this post is just a tea break, so I do not want to write something very deep or too serious, I just want to have a small chat here this time. Or like NEW YEAR RESOLUTION? kinda thing? for a new section of my life.

    I like to write, but at the same time, I like to talk/speak too. So I thought it would be very exciting to start a podcast. And I should finally start the translation of the posts that I already posted in Japanese into English. Yeah, I know, finally. But before that, how can I start a podcast? I have literally no idea, to be honest. Which platform is the best for a podcast channel? Maybe YouTube is the most common and easy choice, I guess? I will try anyway, though.

    Also, I am studying hard to do my master's from this autumn. My true dream. My true desire. I would love to go. Although nothing is decided yet, like which university, which country, or even which language, so go with the flow. All I can do is just pray hard.

    Well, so, if I have some more updates, I will post here.

    Anyway, this is my announcement that I am back in social.

ciao.